The Rainbow-虹(英文版)

第87部分 (第4/7頁)

came　to　her　with　such　absolute　service。

She　owned　his　body　and　enjoyed　it　with　all　the　delight　and

carelessness　of　a　possessor。　But　he　had　bee　gradually　afraid

of　her　body。　He　wanted　her；　he　wanted　her　endlessly。　But　there

had　e　a　tension　into　his　desire；　a　constraint　which　prevented

his　enjoying　the　delicious　approach　and　the　lovable　close　of　the

endless　embrace。　He　was　afraid。　His　will　was　always　tense；

fixed。

Her　final　examination　was　at　midsummer。　She　insisted　on

sitting　for　it；　although　she　had　neglected　her　work　during　the

past　months。　He　also　wanted　her　to　go　in　for　the　degree。　Then；

he　thought；　she　would　be　satisfied。　Secretly　he　hoped　she　would

fail；　so　that　she　would　be　more　glad　of　him。

〃Would　you　rather　live　in　India　or　in　England　when　we　are

married？〃　he　asked　her。

〃Oh；　in　India；　by　far；〃　she　said；　with　a　careless　lack　of

consideration　which　annoyed　him。

Once　she　said；　with　heat：

〃I　shall　be　glad　to　leave　England。　Everything　is　so　meagre

and　paltry；　it　is　so　unspiritual……I　hate　democracy。〃

He　became　angry　to　hear　her　talk　like　this；　he　did　not　know

why。　Somehow；　he　could　not　bear　it；　when　she　attacked　things。　It

was　as　if　she　were　attacking　him。

〃What　do　you　mean？〃　he　asked　her；　hostile。　〃Why　do　you　hate

democracy？〃

〃Only　the　greedy　and　ugly　people　e　to　the　top　in　a

democracy；〃　she　said；　〃because　they're　the　only　people　who　will

push　themselves　there。　Only　degenerate　races　are

democratic。〃

〃What　do　you　want　then……an　aristocracy？〃　he　asked；

secretly　moved。　He　always　felt　that　by　rights　he　belonged　to　the

ruling　aristocracy。　Yet　to　hear　her