The Rainbow-虹(英文版)

第32部分 (第6/7頁)

s　blind；　fought　madly　back　again；

frantic　in　sensual　fear。　He　did　foolish　things。　He　asserted

himself　on　his　rights；　he　arrogated　the　old　position　of　master

of　the　house。

〃You've　a　right　to　do　as　I　want；〃　he　cried。

〃Fool！〃　she　answered。　〃Fool！〃

〃I'll　let　you　know　who's　master；〃　he　cried。

〃Fool！〃　she　answered。　〃Fool！　I've　known　my　own　father；　who

could　put　a　dozen　of　you　in　his　pipe　and　push　them　down　with　his

finger…end。　Don't　I　know　what　a　fool　you　are！〃

He　knew　himself　what　a　fool　he　was；　and　was　flayed　by　the

knowledge。　Yet　he　went　on　trying　to　steer　the　ship　of　their　dual

life。　He　asserted　his　position　as　the　captain　of　the　ship。　And

captain　and　ship　bored　her。　He　wanted　to　loom　important　as

master　of　one　of　the　innumerable　domestic　craft　that　make　up　the

great　fleet　of　society。　It　seemed　to　her　a　ridiculous　armada　of

tubs　jostling　in　futility。　She　felt　no　belief　in　it。　She　jeered

at　him　as　master　of　the　house；　master　of　their　dual　life。　And　he

was　black　with　shame　and　rage。　He　knew；　with　shame；　how　her

father　had　been　a　man　without　arrogating　any　authority。

He　had　gone　on　the　wrong　tack；　and　he　felt　it　hard　to　give　up

the　expedition。　There　was　great　surging　and　shame。　Then　he

yielded。　He　had　given　up　the　master…of…the…house　idea。

There　was　something　he　wanted；　nevertheless；　some　form　of

mastery。　Ever　and　anon；　after　his　collapses　into　the　petty　and

the　shameful；　he　rose　up　again；　and；　stubborn　in　spirit；　strong

in　his　power　to　start　afresh；　set　out　once　more　in　his　male

pride　of　being　to　fulfil　the　hidden　passion　of　his　spirit。

It　began　well；　but　it　ended　always　in　war　bet