new moon(暮光之城-新月英文版)

第28部分 (第4/7頁)

　meadow　was　empty　of

atmosphere；　empty　of

everything；　just　like　everywhere　else。　Just　like　my　nightmares。　My　head

swirled　dizzily。

At　least　I'd　e　alone。　I　felt　a　rush　of　thankfulness　as　I　realized　that。　If

I'd　discovered　the　meadow　with

Jacob　well；　there　was　no　way　I　could　have　disguised　the　abyss　I　was　plunging

into　now。　How　could　I

have　explained　the　way　I　was　fracturing　into　pieces；　the　way　I　had　to　curl

into　a　ball　to　keep　the　empty

hole　from　tearing　me　apart？　It　was　so　much　better　that　I　didn't　have　an

audience。

And　I　wouldn't　have　to　explain　to　anyone　why　I　was　in　such　a　hurry　to　leave；

either。　Jacob　would　have

assumed；　after　going　to　so　much　trouble　to　locate　the　stupid　place；　I　would

want　to　spend　more　than　a

few　seconds　here。　But　I　was　already　trying　to　find　the　strength　to　get　to　my

feet　again；　forcing　myself　out

of　the　ball　so　that　I　could　escape。　There　was　too　much　pain　in　this　empty

place　to　bear—I　would　crawl

away　if　I　had　to。

How　lucky　that　I　was　alone！

Alone。　I　repeated　the　word　with　grim　satisfaction　as　I　wrenched　myself　to　my

feet　despite　the　pain。　At

precisely　that　moment；　a　figure　stepped　out　from　the　trees　to　the　north；　some

thirty　paces　away。

A　dizzying　array　of　emotions　shot　through　me　in　a　second。　The　first　was

surprise；　I　was　far　from　any　trail

here；　and　I　didn't　expect　pany。　Then；　as　my　eyes　focused　on　the　motionless

figure；　seeing　the　utter

stillness；　the　pallid　skin；　a　rush　of　piercing　hope　rocked　through　me。　I

suppressed　it　viciously；　fighting

against　the　equally　sharp　lash　of　agony　as　my　eyes　continued　to　the　face