new moon(暮光之城-新月英文版)

第5部分 (第5/7頁)

ldn't　be

impressed　by　Carlisle。　Besides；　the　only　kind　of　heaven　I　could　appreciate

would　have　to　include

Edward。　〃And　I　don't　think　anyone　else　would；　either。〃

〃Actually；　you're　the　very　first　one　to　agree　with　me。〃

〃The　rest　of　them　don't　feel　the　same？〃　I　asked；　surprised；　thinking　of　only

one　person　in　particular。

Carlisle　guessed　the　direction　of　my　thoughts　again。　〃Edward's　with　me　up　to　a

point。　God　and　heaven

exist　and　so　does　hell。　But　he　doesn't　believe　there　is　an　afterlife　for　our

kind。〃　Carlisle's　voice　was

very　soft；　he　stared　out　the　big　window　over　the　sink；　into　the　darkness。　〃You

see；　he　thinks　we've　lost

our　souls。〃

I　immediately　thought　of　Edward's　words　this　afternoon：　unless　you　want　to　die

—or　whatever　it　is

that　we　do。　The　lightbulb　flicked　on　over　my　head。

〃That's　the　real　problem；　isn't　it？〃　I　guessed。　〃That's　why　he's　being　so

difficult　about　me。〃

Carlisle　spoke　slowly。　〃I　look　at　my　son。　His　strength；　his　goodness；　the

brightness　that　shines　out　of

him—and　it　only　fuels　that　hope；　that　faith；　more　than　ever。　How　could　there

not　be　more　for　one　such　as

Edward？〃

I　nodded　in　fervent　agreement。

〃But　if　I　believed　as　he　does〃　He　looked　down　at　me　with　unfathomable　eyes。

〃If　you　believed　as　he

did。　Could　you　take　away　his　soul？〃

The　way　he　phrased　the　question　thwarted　my　answer。

If　he'd　asked　me　whether　I　would　risk　my　soul　for　Edward；　the　reply　would　be

obvious。　But　would　I　risk

Edward's　soul？　I　pursed　my　lips　unhappily。　That　wasn't　a　fair　exchange。

〃You　see　the　problem。〃

I　shook　my　head；　aware　of　the　stubborn　set　of　my