new moon(暮光之城-新月英文版)

第5部分 (第3/7頁)

and　I　tried　not　to　picture　a　needle　and

thread。

〃You　try　very　hard　to　make　up　for　something　that　was　never　your　fault；〃　I

suggested　while　a　new　kind　of

tugging　started　at　the　edges　of　my　skin。　〃What　I　mean　is；　it's　not　like　you

asked　for　this。　You　didn't

choose　this　kind　of　life；　and　yet　you　have　to　work　so　hard　to　be　good。〃

〃I　don't　know　that　I'm　making　up　for　anything；〃　he　disagreed　lightly。　〃Like

everything　in　life；　I　just　had　to

decide　what　to　do　with　what　I　was　given。〃

〃That　makes　it　sound　too　easy。〃

He　examined　my　arm　again。　〃There；〃　he　said；　snipping　a　thread。　〃All　done。〃　He

wiped　an　oversized

Q…tip；　dripping　with　some　syrup…colored　liquid；　thoroughly　across　the

operation　site。　The　smell　was

strange；　it　made　my　head　spin。　The　syrup　stained　my　skin。

〃In　the　beginning；　though；〃　I　pressed　while　he　taped　another　long　piece　of

gauze　securely　in　place；　sealing

it　to　my　skin。　〃Why　did　you　even　think　to　try　a　different　way　than　the　obvious

one？〃

His　lips　turned　up　in　a　private　smile。　〃Hasn't　Edward　told　you　this　story？〃

〃Yes。　But　I'm　trying　to　understand　what　you　were　thinking〃

His　face　was　suddenly　serious　again；　and　I　wondered　if　his　thoughts　had　gone

to　the　same　place　that　mine

had。　Wondering　what　I　would　be　thinking　when—I　refused　to　think　if—it　was

me。

〃You　know　my　father　was　a　clergyman；〃　he　mused　as　he　cleaned　the　table

carefully；　rubbing　everything

down　with　wet　gauze；　and　then　doing　it　again。　The　smell　of　alcohol　burned　in

my　nose。　〃He　had　a　rather

harsh　view　of　the　world；　which　I　was　already　beginning　to　question　before　the

time　that　I　changed。〃