The Shining 原版小說

第11部分 (第3/7頁)

her　mind　as　she　turned　the　potatoes　for　supper　over　in　her　hands　for　the

peeler's　blade。　And　she　would　turn　around　to　see　him　sitting　cross…legged　in　a

kitchen　chair；　looking　at　her　with　eyes　that　seemed　both　frightened　and

accusatory。　Walking　with　him　in　the　park；　he　would　suddenly　seize　both　her　hands

and　say　—　almost　demand：　〃Do　you　love　me？　Do　you　love　daddy？〃　And；　confused；　she

would　nod　or　say；　〃Of　course　I　do；　honey。〃　Then　he　would　run　to　the　duck　pond；

sending　them　squawking　and　scared　to　the　other　end；　flapping　their　wings　in　a

panic　before　the　small　ferocity　of　his　charge；　leaving　her　to　stare　after　him

and　wonder。

There　were　even　times　when　it　seemed　that　her　determination　to　at　least

discuss　the　matter　with　Jack　dissolved；　not　out　of　her　own　weakness；　but　under

the　determination　of　her　son's　will。

I　don't　believe　such　things。

But　in　sleep　she　did　believe　them；　and　in　sleep；　with　her　husband's　seed　still

drying　on　her　thighs；　she　felt　that　the　three　of　them　had　been　permanently

welded　together　—　that　if　their　three/oneness　was　to　be　destroyed；　it　would　not

be　destroyed　by　any　of　them　but　from　outside。

Most　of　what　she　believed　centered　around　her　love　for　Jack。　She　had　never

stopped　loving　him；　except　maybe　for　that　dark　period　immediately　following

Danny's　〃accident。〃　And　she　loved　her　son。　Most　of　all　she　loved　them　together；

walking　or　riding　or　only　sitting；　Jack's　large　head　and　Danny's　small　one

poised　alertly　over　the　fans　of　old　maid　hands；　sharing　a　bottle　of　Coke；

looking　at　the　funnies。　She　loved　having　them　with　her；　and　she　hoped　to　dear

God　that　this　hotel　caretaking　job　Al　had　gotten　fo